Sometimes you need to reward yourself by saying damn look at the amazing week I had keep it up, look at my progress, look at how fast I recover from a panic attack now. Keep doing those mantras keep up the self talk and sharing your feelings. And sometimes it’s ok if you don’t want to acknowledge it at all and just be but Iv realized a good lesson again that after feeling good for awhile I seem to “forget” or not want to recognize that Iv been doing good UNTIL I’m not doing good. I get so wrapped up in being ok I forget that I’m “sick” per say. I don’t work on myself I let things sip and I don’t watch the signs and BOOM, overwhelmed, angry and back to the beginning and I really get down on myself and feel so guilty and bad for taking things out on someone else or getting to worked up over nothing and I realize that even when your feeling good you have to work on yourself everyday it’s even better to do it then, to ensure that each time lasts longs and relapses are easier and shorter and seen better. I forget sometimes that I don’t have to carry the world on my shoulders I don’t need to and I don’t want to, no one’s going to look at me funny or be mad when I say I need a little help still. To me realizing this is a trophy all on its own.
— Trena Pearl Wall