Rollercoaster of Feelings

Seems I only come here and submit when I feel lonely in a really specific sense. I’m a rollercoaster of feelings these last days and I’m not even sure if I can explain anything right now. I just feel disgusting. I haven’t been worried about my body in a long time and now I had to start nourishing it in order to be prepared for a surgery and it felt right a week ago but now I’m just wasted and can’t understand how this mash of tissue and bone keeps going despite everything. I don’t like it. I don’t like changing routines. The idea of eating more and not being able to move for a month or so.

I’ve had some really good days, and I like myself better but right at the moment I just don’t like living in general… I only post here acting like a victim, and I wanted to thank everyone who have liked and commented my pics, your presence has helped me a lot and I appreciate it SO much ♥

— Celi